10% down

 As I am on my journey to lose use the 60 kg of fat, I have successfully used up 6 kg of it. And I'm 1/10th there. Only 90% remaining!

But a thing happened today. I felt my depression episode setting in, and my mom is really not feeling well, she needs my best self. And I was feeling drowsy and low on energy, unable to concentrate, unable to sleep. So I had a breakfast today. And I feel great!!!

I wish I had this planned... If I had, I would have eatedn a Keto breakfast, and rode the Keto bus as long I could. But... here's a lesson... I now feel so good that I want to start another 5 day fast now. Since 5 days is what I can go without any problem, it seems. 

There's another idea however... on the days I workout (M, W, F), I will just have one meal, maybe breakfast, maybe dinner. This seems like a nice protocol I can live with, and meanwhile I am developing a love for empty stomach and hunger pangs... it's a drowsiness I don't like. And if there are any special occasions, I will plan for them, such that there are only three meals in a week. 

What I really want to do is develop is a healthy relationship with food and eating. For example, I ate right now, and I think I enjoyed it more than I should (i.e. emotional eating played a role certainly) but I didn't overeat... Maybe more than I needed, but not so much that I am bursting at the seams. I don't feel heavy, instead I feel energized. That's the right kind of amount. 

So here's a little update: Had the breakfast, gonna start again, maybe another 5 dayer, maybe 3/week. Let's see. I am inclined towards 5 dayer.